Sunday, 15 April 2012

A Letter to you .1: I'm not crazy

Fuck, I miss hate your hair. Your fluffy, dark brown hair that doesn’t acknowledge the concept “gravity” It goes well with your pale skin. I think all the girls fell for you because of your skin color, huh and you call me dysfunctional.  I also hate your narrow hips. That’s the only thing that made you special. Your narrow hips. Otherwise you look like the rest of the typical assholes.

 Why aren’t you ginger?


...I’m not drunk
I’m not high, .I’m not hyper. I’m not dizzy. I’m not tired. I’m just sick of making excuses for myself whenever I mention you. I’m going to accept it. You will always be on my mind. You’re like a gum stuck on a shoe. Just fuck you and fuck your ancestors too for breeding. Why did I ever talk to you just why whyw whwywhwywhwywhwywhwywhwywhy
What if we talk again?
What will you be to me?
I don’t want to be your friend

I don’t want to be anything it’s just that I can’t get rid of the thoughts of you. I hate you I swear.
Only sometimes I don't
And sometimes I wanna take a thick rope and wrap it around my neck and pull it slowly and hard so I can feel the bones cracking.

I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO
ALL I WANT IS FOR THE PSYCHTRIST TO ANSWER MY EMAIL 

Tuesday, 22 March 2011

How long must I wait?

I'm sick of people telling me to "smile more often"
i'm not frowning
i'm not pouting
that's just my face.
besides there's nothing to smile about. 

Wednesday, 9 March 2011

I want to dissolve
I want to disappear
this is the second time. I think 2009 was enough for me.
i'm losing hope in everything.

this is my last day.

Sunday, 27 February 2011

The present is well out of hand

You know I would've normally ignored you but i'm sad, and i'm lonely.
i'm regretting this already. I could've done other interesting things like staring at the ceiling.

being lonely sounds appealing now, i'm gonna stop talking to you RIGHT THIS SECOND.

Wednesday, 26 January 2011

There's no secret to decode

No one listens to decent music anymore. it's a shame.
put down that lady gaga cd and start listening to real music.

Wednesday, 19 January 2011

You looked the other way

Why do I keep acting like him? he's not my friend anymore, and I've accepted that a long time ago. I actually looked up to him; he was my role model, but I guess nothing lasts forever.
asshole.

Show Your Paintings

What's the difference between being inspired and stealing? I say nothing. 
Here I go again letting nonsense escape my not-so-under-control mouth. or hand. whatever.